Courage.

do i have that in me?if so,why do i find it so hard to even talk to her?

she probably thinks that i'm a spineless guy with no confidence at all.i feel so sick of myself.gosh.-.-

i really feel like punching the heck right out a punching bag.i'll stick a picture of myself to the punching bag.

gosh.

how much do i really like you?

sigh~~~

this isn't really a happy start to a post.but today isn't an entirely happy day either.

it was a normal,too normal day.

i tried to do chem assignment,mug physics...but only half-accomplished at doing that.

groan.

here comes the weekend.oh joy.

...for some reason i'm not looking forward to this weekend.

because i'll have to do work,and my social life is like utterly depraved already.

have not went out on weekends with friends ever.not even once.

coz nobody to go out with-,-

siannnn.

feel so tired right now.probably should go sleep.

got phy in class next week T.T gonna die x.x

i hope something comes up,if not i'm gonna be bored to death.yeap.

see ya~

i'm such an a**

i am.i can't tell you why,because it's just wrong.

no,that was not meant to be a rong joke.

because what I really want is just wrong.morally wrong,ethically wrong.

no,it's not sex.i'm not some sex crazed maniac.

but it's just wrong.

so i'm a douchebag.

i flared up during soccer just now.i screamed at myself,i really felt like punching myself.everything i did was just wrong.

WRONG.

just so wrong.this post is certainly not directed at you pin,because i'm certainly in no mood to do that.

why do i have to be this way?

WHY?D:

oh gosh.

bufflord pecs

super funny lor.dwayne THE ROCK johnson is so damn cool.

and buff :D

yeap.

went out with ji ytd,to catch chronicle.but decided on journey 2:the mysterious island.

it's quite nice.you should go for it.

but also quite cheat.who could have been able to build such a cool sub in the 19th century? >:D

hehes.got to eat taiwan chicken again!!!:DDDDD

thanks ji :)

then then right ji bought this whistle candy,and got all high over it xD

she got a ring out of the toy box that came with the candy.

the candy tasted...ok ok lar.

quite artificial,the taste.

so awesome~then after that we went hunting for hairclips.first time i've been out shopping with a girl,quite...an experience.[not bad,actually]

went to vivomart later,to splurge.

bought yogurt,and granola.but both failed horribly D: (acty okay lar)

she went to buy some baking stuff.she's making________.

yeap.it's a surprise xD

we didn't go for dinner though,coz we were still full from the chips...we were like spamming chips while watching lolz:S

then we took 963 back,and she showed me what they got for tcf.

SO COOL HAHA.

tcf put out for display in the staffroom tooo....such a cool teacher.

and apparently cosplaying can make you go from not to hot.

that's all to this post for the moment,see ya~

but first,here's something to enjoy.

reflections

I'm a(n) pathetic fool awesome guy with no more self-confidence (than i probably realise).there you go.

i really am.

self-respect,yo.PEACE!

friends.that's what they're for.

thanks,dearie~~~you're a friend to keep for life :D

anws.today.BUUUUUFFETSSSSSSS HAHAHAHA

yupp.2 buffets in one day.

EAT.and EAT.and EAT.

oh gosh.so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh fooooooooooooood.

oh gosh.oh gosh.

SO HIGH AND TIRED AT THE SAME TIME.

and I'm so hungry now.because of this.

argh.hard to msn and post at the same time.but today nothing much bah.

i tried to do chem in the morning but failed horribly.

for now,this is a short post.wait.maybe i should finish another part of the quiz.

why i got no free slot?><

Friends

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger?

maybe.it depends
107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

either also can.i need to expand my social circle.
108-Who is someone you never tire of?

my mum,despite her nagging(sometimes)xD.w/o her,i'd die.
109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

i don't know.i think i'm not who i appear to be.
110-Who is your most loyal friend?

everyone.wait.KIM JI HYUN xD.ok la.pinnnny to a certain large extent xD
111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

erm,well,sometimes.like just now.
112-If your best friend died, what would you do?

i don't want to think about this
113-Something you’ve lied about.

my huge biceps(ok,just jk...i don't have xD)
114-Have you ever felt replaced?

maybe...but not now.
115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):

they're awesome.

Relationships

116-The last person you hugged?

can't rmb.
117-Story of your first kiss?

never had one.
118-Do you like kissing in public?

somewhere private bah
119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

my mum?haha.you know,when i was younger.
120-You have a preference for boys or girls?

GIRLS LA.I"M STRAIGHT OKAYYYY.
121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection?

whatttt?
127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone?

last time,it was the looks.recently,i look more inside.
128-Are looks important in a relationship?

to a certain extent,yes,but it's not the most important aspect.
129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

i don't know...sexy?xD but what's most impt is on the inside
130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

it's God's will.
131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

no,that's just soooo weird.
133-Do you have a crush on anyone?

yes
134-A description of the girl/boy you like:

i'd rather not say.
135-Say 1 fact about the person you like:

cute.
136-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

go for it.
137-When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

long time.i think.
138-Do you think someone has feelings for you?

i don't know.
139-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

don't get my hopes up
140-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

nope
141-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yes.scarlett johansson xD
142-Anyone you’re giving up on?

no.

143-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yes,happened last year.
144-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

no.
145-Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

yes.
146-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

no.i no girl friend yet! :o
147-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

maybeeee.
148-Is there someone you will never forget?

my mum.other than that,it's all in the future.
153-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

my mum does sweet and caring things for me.
154-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

surprise me.
157-Are you in love?

i'm not so sure myself.
158-Are you in a relationship?

NO.
159-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

what?i told you i didn't have one.
160-Are relationships ever worth it?

if you're with the right person,then yes.
161-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

no.
162-Can you commit to one person?

i hope so.but yes,i think i can.
163-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yes.cheating in a relationship can be considered adultery in my opinion.
164-Do you ever want to get married?

yes.
165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

too early.
167-Do you get jealous easily?

dunno.
168-The last time you felt jealous, and why?

i had no fake naan.
169-What is your definition of cheating?

it's the same as everyone else's
170-Have you ever been cheated on?

no.
171-Do you forgive betrayal?

i'm not sure.
172-Have you ever cheated on someone?

no.
173-Why did your last relationship fail?

i haven't been in a relationship before...
174-Things you want to say to an ex:

let's stay friends(if i ever have an ex.i hope not.)
175-A description of the person you dislike the most:

URGH.don't make me puke.
176-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

maybe?i hadn't had one yet.all only merely infatuation.
177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

none.
178-How long was your longest relationship?

it never happened.
179-You’ll love me if…

you were her?
180-Share a relationship story:

why is the malaysian highway asia's largest hadron collider?

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coz it has protons colliding xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

just too much.and i'm getting tired.i'll leave this for later ~

see ya~~~

I suck at football

i do.my composure's a wreck.i suck at crossing.i suck.i wonder what coach thinks of me.he must think that i'm lousy.sigh~

i suck at clearing,i suck at control and passing under pressure.

sure,practice.technique can practice,but mentality must have experience.

why do i try so hard?haiz.

i think my seniors are all exasperated with me.i'm like so erratic.sometimes i can,sometimes i can't.

groan.

ARGHHHH.

i need someone to practice with.very desperately,or it'll jeopardize my place in the cca.

anyways....so.it's been a week since i last posted.i don't know why though.

yeap.somedays i don't feel like recounting the events that had taken place that day.because that meant reliving them.and i certainly wouldn't like to relive monday,wed,and today.

because I screwed up.badly.so so so so so badly.

but...Mr.Lim 's gonna treat us to starbucks!the whole class!haha he's so awesome...he'll be like 有没有？when he's teaching us something everytime and we'll be like 没有~ and he'll give us his epic smile.

epic teacher.who uses an epic balloon stick.who treats starbucks like kopitiam coffee,can anyhow treat de xD

hehehehehehe




hohoho so epic and nice!

kim ji hyun,if you're reading this blog,you should sing this.i can't...too high.

so sweet~~~ and sad.

aww...




makes me regret stopping learning piano.

right.this week i had three training sessions,and the toughest ns grp training session so far.hohoho...makes me feel buff :D

hehe.but tmr got 2 buffets =-="

one at my uncle's factory,and one at church.

factory sounds so degrading somehow. corporation then.sound so pro.

but my uncle's noodles are fantastic.they are.i better get some for jiamin.

right.i'm off to do some other random stuff then.

this post's filled with random stuff.

alright.see ya,and have a great weekend,guys^^