Brit-ish comedy

i wonder if listening to british comedy will help me improve my english.if you guys want to slack off and listen to some brit-ish comedy too,just go youtube "Cabin Pressure".

though it's supposedly a british comedy,i still can't get like 80% of the humor of it.

do i not have a sense of humor?._.

here's the first episode.just so you guys are interested.




righty-o.

this entire week was alot more busier.well,at least it felt like it.though i didn't have training on mon,wed and fri.

feel so slackish,urgh ><

oh ya.i watched the match today.and it was,erm...dreadful.
we lost 5-1.

as Joel said,we were completely outmatched,outran,outclassed.

and the way they play was so scary ._.

i'm already shuddering at the thought of playing next week.there's like 3 more friendlies next week,so chances are i could play.

gosh.i feel so screwed.it's like i was screwing up my passes left right already during the pre match warm up.it's like my confidence is like so fragile now that my touches are not what they are in normal practice,aRGH.

and the fact that i'm probably not doing anything to help that makes it even worst.

why do i have such a low self-confidence?D:

if i play,i might screw up big time><

i know,if we never make mistakes,we'll never learn.problem is,the mistakes i make i don't learn from them,even though i want to all the time.

i really hate this mental fragility of mine.can i even call myself a man now?sigh.

i feel like i'm  subconsciously hiding my true potential.maybe it really is mind over matter.my composure's a wreck every time in match situations.and i somehow keep thinking i'll screw up,and i do eventually.

wow.i must be pathetic,eh?

if i keep beating up myself over these mistakes,it won't help even more.

tell me,it is okay to make mistakes,right?._.

and it's like i'm afraid of disappointing the coach,my seniors and even my friends, that i often end up screwing up.T.T

looks like this is a emo post again.><

and the fact that the weekend looks so bleak makes it even worst.why do my weekends seem this way every time?:O

is it because of hostel?it could very well be.

friends?


i have chem and med chem quiz next week,i don't even know why i took med chem hehs.i was interested in the module,i think.well,i still am.it's abit urgh-ish sometimes but still very interesting.

i definitely want to pursue a career in chemistry in the future.whether it's material science,pharmaceutical industry,chemical engineering,i'm not sure.maybe God will lead the way.wait.what am i saying.Of course He will lead the way.right,sam?:)

my spiritual life is in disarray.i can't push myself to get some 'quiet time' with God nowadays,mostly because i keep getting distracted and keep pushing it to the back of my mind.otherwise known as procrastinating.T.T

it should be my number 1 priority.it should.but why isn't it? God should be.

i need to rework my lifestyle,big time.

right.gotta go.eat stuff xD

see ya~