Picture this

Let's say, hypothetically speaking, supervillains existed in this world. What would you do?

look at this lol

Mornin'

There's nothing like having a relaxed, laidback breakfast; 4 pieces of lightly toasted Breadtalk wholemeal bread, then spreading french strawberry jam and reduced fat peanut butter over them, finally finished off with a side of vanilla-flavored protein shake.

"I love my muscles so much that I protect them with a layer of fats"

Might be my case.Spare tire.

Gym + ARP successively is not a good idea. I kept dozing off during the SEM analysis. And also arp ended alot later then usual, we ended at 6+.

Then came back home, squeezed with alot of ppl who had just knocked off only, and cooked myself quite a spread for dinner (well as compared to the past few days), but in my defense, there were lots of leftovers in the fridge I had to 'take care of '. After dinner, I finally took down that magnum bar I had in the freezer and ate it.

Yea. I ate it.

All that chocolate-y, vanilla-y creamy and almond-y goodness in one single bar. But all that's fats too xD

Haiz, it's too good to be true. Wish that I can eat lots of food without getting fat.

Waiting for leftover meat in the freezer to defrost now,so that I can marinade it and cook it straight away after coming back from gym; I think I'm gonna sear it.

Oh, and I'm gonna be stuck in army barracks (well not entirely) from next monday to wednesday.

Plus I'm open to anyone who wants to ka-cheow me tomorrow afternoon. You might get a treat, but don't get your hopes too high up, I don't want to tear a large hole in my wallet :P

Not thinking straight.

Heh,apologies...I definitely started spouting nonsense towards the end last night...

I feel

like a little dinghy going up against strong currents.

haha

I must admit,I was feeling quite messed up on monday.but well,that's more or less in the past now.

Anyways,somehow,both pradeep and jiamin cancelled on me in the morning (to go gym-ing), meaning I would not have to travel all the way to clementi, which meant that I have to squeeze in with working clothes-clad adults clad in my gym clothes in the mrt,which I must admit was quite a refreshing experience,not having to squeeze in the morning train for the past year or so. And so, I just walked to the gym at cck, and gyming alone for the first time gave me a little butterflies in my tummy.

After my workout, I felt immensely satisfied with myself. I managed to gym alone! Yay! Although gym-ing alone meant that you did not have someone beside you to correct your form; I think my deadlift technique was a little shoddy as I increased the weights, I was also using my quads to lift. Dang.

After that, went to ntuc to buy stuff, finally bought some peanut butter, so I can eat pbj sandwich! Reaching home, showered, cooked lunch, ate lunch, tidied the kitchen up, then spend the rest of the time downloading and watching btr/ hawaii five-o. Cooked dinner at like 7/8-ish, some weird dish consisting of onions,minced pork,egg and leftover rice.

Brown the onion, then mix the pork and eggs in, and finish it off by dumping the rice in. And mix it all up. Top it up with one whole japanese cucumber. It's anything but gourmet,the presentation was shoddy too, I didn't really care anyway. At least it filled my stomach.

My social life is dying. These few days, if not for gym, arp or grocery shopping, I'd just be stuck at home. Even if I were to go out somewhere to 'walk-walk', I still wouldn't know what to do. Sigh. Really bored to death, if not for my collection american drama series. No one to find to go out with too.

Well, I'm off to...slack. Well, that's all I can do now. What a sad, sad life. That's how being home alone feels.

Cover girl

It's quite a nice song. Sung by one of my favorite bands. Enjoy.

Cravings

Weirdly, right now,I'm craving for ice cream and there's one more bar of magnum lying in my freezer.

I'm starting to think

...that life isn't so peachy after all.

Well...maybe it's quite obvious, after all,not everything in life goes the way you want it to go. And it happened again. Or at least it's starting to happen again.

Just like last year. I always manage to end up in situations like this, for some unknown, unfathomable reason. Should just stop caring. Haha. Maybe that's what I should do. I just don't want to care anymore. Well, I'm off to shower, then go out and buy some soup. Been rotting away the whole day at home.

well...

so I'll be home alone for 13 days lol.yeap.

one more thing

The bbq, if you're interested in going, is on 13th Dec. The whole thing starts at 7pm I think.

I forgot to mention this.

(To others: this has nothing to do with 9th Dec)

brainwave

Whilst walking home just now,I came up with a brilliant plan to expand my social network in church. It's nearly been a year since I came to this church,but my relationship with the youths over there have only slightly improved. So, what's better than organising an outing during the holidays, during which, we can just hang out, mingle and socialise, thus we can all warm up to each other! Well technically I'm the oldest among all of the youths that will potentially be going, they're around 16 and below. I think right now I'm the tall, quiet guy who walks around randomly during break time. I hope that they'll agree to this idea, so that I can get to know more new friends and know more about the friends I currently have.:)

It puzzles me

how I manage to get myself into sticky situations time and time again...

the fizziness of emotions

warm,fuzzy feelings bubbling away within the deep recesses of my soul...time for a snack?

so...rejected

looks like I got rejected. by nus. lolol. I'm not really bummed out by this, just a little disappointed.

Without that module hanging over my head next sem seems less...packed. Although I'm sure research congress will prove to be such a pain. and I even forgot that I had an SEM slot booked for arp today. -.-

and ssef, maybe. If I manage to get through, that is.

now what.no arp this week-.-. wonderful.

Sigh.

jetting off(in a car) again

I'm off to malaysia again...if anything,just contact me through email or fb.

Well,I doubt anyone would be looking for me.

Decisions

Far too often the decisions I make often come back to haunt me.

I should have just went to another branch to get the one with the cellular network version.damn.I really feel like a blur cow now.sigh.

If english was a person,he'd be in ICU by now.

Yeap.English,my nemesis.Oh,how I long to omit you from my progress report.If I could,I'd be 0.4 happier.

Hmph.

Oh well,I guess I have one more year left in nushs to screw up english.

Anyways,no more hostel!While I admit it has been fun,but the packing up and checking out is....ARGHH.

But then,the worst part is unpacking all those things I've brought back home.I took an hour just to unpack=.=

Never want to do this again.

Also,I spent like more than half the day running on super low fuel,at the gym and ptm.I had no breakfast,and could only take my lunch after ptm ended,which was like 3.30pm.Lol.Funny thing is,I didn't even feel that hungry.Yay,my body's screwed.

Oh,and I just found out that Mr.Loo fb msg-ed me yesterday.Which is...weird?(I'm conversing with him on fb msg right now,I feel so weird._.)

Okay,time to go relax~

Right,Mr.Loo just said np,he also said haha,and he said hey man too.This is a rather new experience for me._.

Don't think I'm getting anywhere with this

I just think that I'm stagnating. It's frustrating,yes...but I'll just have to wait.

Also,I feel like stabbing myself with an eraser.

Words

I've never been good with them. It's always been a problem. I always seem to fumble around with them, and frankly, it really leaves me at a loss for them.

It's some sort of mental block or something, that I have never been able to clearly express myself with them. Be it verbally, or well, written or typed, I always seem to send the wrong message to the person on the receiving end. In verbal presentations, essays, or even day-to-day conversations, I always seem to struggle with them. Words, they just never seem to work out for me. Under pressure, I find myself having difficulty expressing myself, and I just start fumbling over words. Half-formed words just spill out, really, that is just plain embarrassing.

On the outside you see a big guy, but on the inside it has always been a little guy. Confidence is one thing that  I have always been lacking. But I'm sure many have been able to figure that out. I want to be a confident, strong-willed person. Believe me, I want to. But I just don't know how to. Try speaking out more? Well, sometimes I speak out at the wrong time, I try to be funny, but end up making a complete fool of myself Which is just so silly.

All along I have accepted the fact that well, I'm born different. With a lower jaw that juts out, I was born this way. But then again what I am really feeling, is that this jaw is like a curse. I know, God made me this way, I should accept it. But it just makes me feel different. All this while I was just comforting myself, thinking, "This is just how and who I am." While at the same time, on the inside, I'm thinking "Why can't I just be normal, like everyone else?" I must admit that this sounds quite shallow. I'm overly concerned with a superficial feature of myself which can be corrected through surgery. What about others, who have other hereditary conditions, which is irreversible, at least with current technology? What about their feelings? I have no right at all to complain. No right.

I don't know what led me to say/type out all these stuff. I've never really thought about all this feelings, that is,   after I watched that spiderman movie. Not that the movie prompted me to start thinking about all these things, buried deep within the inner recesses of my mind.

I just needed to vent, I guess.

Growing up

It can be painful.I realised that while talking to my mum this afternoon. It pains me knowing that I can do nothing much(well,almost nothing) to help her get through all this.

It's part of life,still,just like how we always say that 生命是短暂的.

I don't know what the future holds for me.I really don't.So it's just a matter of taking life one step at a time.

Hold those who are dear to you close to you,and treasure them. You never know what are God's plans, after all.

What he says isn't really the truth.hmph.

shan't care much about it.doesn't concern me much anyway.

So far

...after the exams seems like nothing to do leh. Except arp-.-