another sidenote

your posts are very very very deep,sam yong... ._."

makes mine all look at cheese and crackers.

Woah.

I shall dedicate this post to 2 readers that i recently knew of,my 姐姐Sam Yong and Leow Si Min da president.

I only realised that my blog's quite emo when they told me.

and that i exposed too much of myself xD

but nevertheless,i trust you two ^^

utmost faith.

especially in my 姐姐。to advertise for me.Single,tall,nice yada yada yada.

and to protect me from bullies.hahahahahahahaha

给你压力:3

they know of my specialty too,my mutated hamster dogs.i shall show you when i get the chance.and my amoebear.

i wonder how she found my blog.maybe she googled me?

wait.i'll go try that.

OH GOSH I CAN SEE MY TWITTER ACC AND P6 BLOG

trying to study math now whilst in the midst of blogging.demanding kayyy.

HOHOHO i'm younger than all of you HAHAHAHA

WHY NEVER MAKE YOURSELVES KNOWN lollollol.

never comment on my tagboard,haha no wonder so empty.

on a sidenote,i'm not so sure of my crush anymore.it's like,only when i see her,then i get that fuzzy feeling.:O

and no,i'm not referring to who you think i am referring too,pres.

soooo...do i really like her?:O

Lollol.

i shall try googling you,sam yong.urgh.nothing comes out.

this post is very disorganized lol.like i jump from one thing to another.

ok,i shall try and finish that quiz for you sake,姐姐。

sometime today.:)

so ya.off i go to study math.~

frustrated.

at the way chelsea is playing at the moment.the way they're playing seems forced -.-

like trying to feed me kiwi.

and i feel very unsettled at the moment.i'm sorry if i said too much.your silence really is unsettling><

haiz.i have absolutely no idea how to socialize.zzz.

alright.i'll try to chiong eng journal,but i'm in half the mood to do so only.so ya.

see ya~

A brief moment of insanity.

eating pasta at 11+.that's insanity.=.=. but ok la,no sauce,no nothing,just pasta plain.

watching tv now.feeling so tired.think i'll go do pushups then go sleep later.

i really hope i can get uk sep next year,ji and leon alr said they'll apply for it also :3

hehehes^^so tired right now,can't even think straight.

i became a model at kampong buangkok today,don't ask me why.

i screwed up.firstly,at group photo taking;

secondly,not bringing a cam to a PHOTOGRAPHY field trip.

yeap.how fail am I.i need to get a grip of myself lol,not very disciplined nowadays in hostel.

shucks xD

wondering whether i should play soccer this sunday~~~my ankle's still a bit susceptible at times.you tell me leh?

i gotta go now,it's pretty late.

nights:D

waiting.

waiting for the moment when it all happens.or when it all falls apart.

oh well.-shrugs-

the british are here!!!!rejoice!!!:DDD

OH YEA.

*punches myself for not applying for sep*

cow.i for sure want to go uk next yr.

problem is,who to go with me? D:

dang.so---

ARGH PANTS GETS PULLED DOWN IOGUUSIVPIUGSDYEIUFBFDVSJ

right.so who to go with?

i'm to anybody,so long as:
a)you're not a douchebag
b)you're nice
c)you're neither hardik nor hema.(i don't think i can stand being with these 2 for that long)
d)you're one of my good friends.

ya,ya i know,it's not cheap,it's $2,700...but it's UK!!!and it's CORNWALL!

FOOTBALL FTW!!!xDDD

yeap.

urgh.my hind quarters feels so intruded upon.

okay,too much info.trollolol

let's go to UK yea!!!

heehee.

right.i'm slacking off right now.gah.even though there's phy ica tmr.

apparently you shouldn't bother studying for it.

YA IT'S THAT EASY HARD./o\

and going gym again tmr.\o/

somewhat looking forward to cluster outing on thurs too^^ \o/

feeling so sian now.i should probably go do english journal.

it's what bo liao ppl do.it's a piece of crap cow.

i have no idea what you guys want to read/see on my blog.so please,do give suggestions.i'll try to the best of my abilities to fulfill all your requests.

no outrageous ones,please.like,post a photo of you half naked.


Okies.MUST DO HOR.

BYEEEEEE~~~see ya!:DDD
                                           

Watch this.

yes,watch this.more of jason chen's awesomeness.




Off to sleep now.take care,you guys.

see ya~

i wish you could see who i really am.see that I am the one.

talking to the moon

it's a nice song.really,it is.

anywhos,this week has been a very weird week.i don't even know what's happening half the time.the most high period of this week was when keefe(i think) loke praised me.yup,a PE TEACHER praised me.that doesn't happen at all.it didn't so far up until this thurs.

so.basically i ran 13 rounds in PE,9 of which in 20 mins.heehee^^

and i exceeded his expectations.awesome!!!HAHAHAs:DDD

chem assignment,screwed up;chem quiz,screwed up;eng SA,most definitely did screw up.

xD

i think dewey thinks that i'm a slackish guy.=.=

oh gosh.i hope i handed in my prelab in time,dewey said 2/3 pm,and i handed in at 3.20 =.="

fudge cake.

i really hope he hasn't went home by then.

oh gosh.

I still feel like I'm a douchebag.

and that I'm annoying like *&%&^$%#&& like that.

why do I beat up myself so often?

dang.

I don't know how i should feel,actually.I'm quite...dazed.

o.o

i don't know what else to say,but i'll just leave you guys with this: You're special,just the way you are.


see ya~

what was i thinking?

what was i thinking,posting that post earlier on?

giving up so early,is that it?

maybe?or is it too early to tell...

oh gosh.i don't know what's going on,actually.

i don't even talk to her.she must think that i hate her or something.

friends first.then whatever that follows,is up to God.

whoever's gonna be my partner for life,He has already decided.

I'm just gonna have to be patient.and wait for that moment.

for now,I'll just concentrate on making friends first.and building friendships that last.

and not be distracted by anyone or anything else.

pfft.hormones.they give you that moment of impulsiveness.

one of the many downs of being a teenager.

well,gotta go.i shan't give up.I'm just gonna wait.Wait to see if she is the one.then only will i respect God's will.

see ya~

what to do,oh what do do?

it's obvious that someone else has caught her attention.

so what to do?strangely i don't feel gutted upon learning that.

i don't even feel sad.

should i let go?or should i fight?

Maybe this is 'necessary'?

i don't know.

they all say,if you truly love someone then you will willingly let go of her(in my case).

Do I?

Maybe this is one of the crossroads of my life.

Maybe.

Don't get me wrong,I'm not devastated or something like that.just...strangely normal ._.

So,what is really the problem here? :/

I can't say.I can't assume/presume anything.

maybe i should...

i'm sorry,ji...you helped me so much...but i may very well let this go><

but i still appreciate your help.really,I do.

true feelings

are they really my true feelings?

it seems that my true feelings only show when i'm under great emotional distress.

Courage.

do i have that in me?if so,why do i find it so hard to even talk to her?

she probably thinks that i'm a spineless guy with no confidence at all.i feel so sick of myself.gosh.-.-

i really feel like punching the heck right out a punching bag.i'll stick a picture of myself to the punching bag.

gosh.

how much do i really like you?

sigh~~~

this isn't really a happy start to a post.but today isn't an entirely happy day either.

it was a normal,too normal day.

i tried to do chem assignment,mug physics...but only half-accomplished at doing that.

groan.

here comes the weekend.oh joy.

...for some reason i'm not looking forward to this weekend.

because i'll have to do work,and my social life is like utterly depraved already.

have not went out on weekends with friends ever.not even once.

coz nobody to go out with-,-

siannnn.

feel so tired right now.probably should go sleep.

got phy in class next week T.T gonna die x.x

i hope something comes up,if not i'm gonna be bored to death.yeap.

see ya~

i'm such an a**

i am.i can't tell you why,because it's just wrong.

no,that was not meant to be a rong joke.

because what I really want is just wrong.morally wrong,ethically wrong.

no,it's not sex.i'm not some sex crazed maniac.

but it's just wrong.

so i'm a douchebag.

i flared up during soccer just now.i screamed at myself,i really felt like punching myself.everything i did was just wrong.

WRONG.

just so wrong.this post is certainly not directed at you pin,because i'm certainly in no mood to do that.

why do i have to be this way?

WHY?D:

oh gosh.

bufflord pecs

super funny lor.dwayne THE ROCK johnson is so damn cool.

and buff :D

yeap.

went out with ji ytd,to catch chronicle.but decided on journey 2:the mysterious island.

it's quite nice.you should go for it.

but also quite cheat.who could have been able to build such a cool sub in the 19th century? >:D

hehes.got to eat taiwan chicken again!!!:DDDDD

thanks ji :)

then then right ji bought this whistle candy,and got all high over it xD

she got a ring out of the toy box that came with the candy.

the candy tasted...ok ok lar.

quite artificial,the taste.

so awesome~then after that we went hunting for hairclips.first time i've been out shopping with a girl,quite...an experience.[not bad,actually]

went to vivomart later,to splurge.

bought yogurt,and granola.but both failed horribly D: (acty okay lar)

she went to buy some baking stuff.she's making________.

yeap.it's a surprise xD

we didn't go for dinner though,coz we were still full from the chips...we were like spamming chips while watching lolz:S

then we took 963 back,and she showed me what they got for tcf.

SO COOL HAHA.

tcf put out for display in the staffroom tooo....such a cool teacher.

and apparently cosplaying can make you go from not to hot.

that's all to this post for the moment,see ya~

but first,here's something to enjoy.

reflections

I'm a(n) pathetic fool awesome guy with no more self-confidence (than i probably realise).there you go.

i really am.

self-respect,yo.PEACE!

friends.that's what they're for.

thanks,dearie~~~you're a friend to keep for life :D

anws.today.BUUUUUFFETSSSSSSS HAHAHAHA

yupp.2 buffets in one day.

EAT.and EAT.and EAT.

oh gosh.so muchhhhhhhhhhhhh fooooooooooooood.

oh gosh.oh gosh.

SO HIGH AND TIRED AT THE SAME TIME.

and I'm so hungry now.because of this.

argh.hard to msn and post at the same time.but today nothing much bah.

i tried to do chem in the morning but failed horribly.

for now,this is a short post.wait.maybe i should finish another part of the quiz.

why i got no free slot?><

Friends

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger?

maybe.it depends
107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

either also can.i need to expand my social circle.
108-Who is someone you never tire of?

my mum,despite her nagging(sometimes)xD.w/o her,i'd die.
109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

i don't know.i think i'm not who i appear to be.
110-Who is your most loyal friend?

everyone.wait.KIM JI HYUN xD.ok la.pinnnny to a certain large extent xD
111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

erm,well,sometimes.like just now.
112-If your best friend died, what would you do?

i don't want to think about this
113-Something you’ve lied about.

my huge biceps(ok,just jk...i don't have xD)
114-Have you ever felt replaced?

maybe...but not now.
115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):

they're awesome.

Relationships

116-The last person you hugged?

can't rmb.
117-Story of your first kiss?

never had one.
118-Do you like kissing in public?

somewhere private bah
119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

my mum?haha.you know,when i was younger.
120-You have a preference for boys or girls?

GIRLS LA.I"M STRAIGHT OKAYYYY.
121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection?

whatttt?
127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone?

last time,it was the looks.recently,i look more inside.
128-Are looks important in a relationship?

to a certain extent,yes,but it's not the most important aspect.
129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

i don't know...sexy?xD but what's most impt is on the inside
130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

it's God's will.
131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

no,that's just soooo weird.
133-Do you have a crush on anyone?

yes
134-A description of the girl/boy you like:

i'd rather not say.
135-Say 1 fact about the person you like:

cute.
136-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

go for it.
137-When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

long time.i think.
138-Do you think someone has feelings for you?

i don't know.
139-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

don't get my hopes up
140-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

nope
141-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yes.scarlett johansson xD
142-Anyone you’re giving up on?

no.

143-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yes,happened last year.
144-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

no.
145-Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

yes.
146-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

no.i no girl friend yet! :o
147-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

maybeeee.
148-Is there someone you will never forget?

my mum.other than that,it's all in the future.
153-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

my mum does sweet and caring things for me.
154-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

surprise me.
157-Are you in love?

i'm not so sure myself.
158-Are you in a relationship?

NO.
159-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

what?i told you i didn't have one.
160-Are relationships ever worth it?

if you're with the right person,then yes.
161-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

no.
162-Can you commit to one person?

i hope so.but yes,i think i can.
163-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

yes.cheating in a relationship can be considered adultery in my opinion.
164-Do you ever want to get married?

yes.
165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

too early.
167-Do you get jealous easily?

dunno.
168-The last time you felt jealous, and why?

i had no fake naan.
169-What is your definition of cheating?

it's the same as everyone else's
170-Have you ever been cheated on?

no.
171-Do you forgive betrayal?

i'm not sure.
172-Have you ever cheated on someone?

no.
173-Why did your last relationship fail?

i haven't been in a relationship before...
174-Things you want to say to an ex:

let's stay friends(if i ever have an ex.i hope not.)
175-A description of the person you dislike the most:

URGH.don't make me puke.
176-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

maybe?i hadn't had one yet.all only merely infatuation.
177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

none.
178-How long was your longest relationship?

it never happened.
179-You’ll love me if…

you were her?
180-Share a relationship story:

why is the malaysian highway asia's largest hadron collider?

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coz it has protons colliding xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

just too much.and i'm getting tired.i'll leave this for later ~

see ya~~~

I suck at football

i do.my composure's a wreck.i suck at crossing.i suck.i wonder what coach thinks of me.he must think that i'm lousy.sigh~

i suck at clearing,i suck at control and passing under pressure.

sure,practice.technique can practice,but mentality must have experience.

why do i try so hard?haiz.

i think my seniors are all exasperated with me.i'm like so erratic.sometimes i can,sometimes i can't.

groan.

ARGHHHH.

i need someone to practice with.very desperately,or it'll jeopardize my place in the cca.

anyways....so.it's been a week since i last posted.i don't know why though.

yeap.somedays i don't feel like recounting the events that had taken place that day.because that meant reliving them.and i certainly wouldn't like to relive monday,wed,and today.

because I screwed up.badly.so so so so so badly.

but...Mr.Lim 's gonna treat us to starbucks!the whole class!haha he's so awesome...he'll be like 有没有？when he's teaching us something everytime and we'll be like 没有~ and he'll give us his epic smile.

epic teacher.who uses an epic balloon stick.who treats starbucks like kopitiam coffee,can anyhow treat de xD

hehehehehehe




hohoho so epic and nice!

kim ji hyun,if you're reading this blog,you should sing this.i can't...too high.

so sweet~~~ and sad.

aww...




makes me regret stopping learning piano.

right.this week i had three training sessions,and the toughest ns grp training session so far.hohoho...makes me feel buff :D

hehe.but tmr got 2 buffets =-="

one at my uncle's factory,and one at church.

factory sounds so degrading somehow. corporation then.sound so pro.

but my uncle's noodles are fantastic.they are.i better get some for jiamin.

right.i'm off to do some other random stuff then.

this post's filled with random stuff.

alright.see ya,and have a great weekend,guys^^