that moment of stupidity

crashed for 2 whole hours just now.open house completely drained me.even though all I did was stand around and talk to parents,answer their queries(to the best of my abilities).

and yes,i did the most stupidest thing i could have ever, ever done.argh.i feel so mad at myself that I can't even bring myself to type it out here.thinking about it just makes me feel like whacking it right out of my head.

oh gosh.that guy is such a cow.play mind games with me.

and I'm a cow to have fallen for such a thing.

facepalm.to infinity and beyond.

other than that,open house was generally okay,got to socialize a lot.(jm and his clemence(i think that's how you spell it).

*punches myself*

oof.

right.ate kfc for dinner,my dad da-pao-ed it from malaysia.like me,he only came back home today.BUT I TOTALLY DITCHED THE SKIN.

and i apologize for my 1 week hiatus,i was too lazy><

sigh.going to watch that match tonight,but the london derby and man city match is showing at the same time.not sure any english broadcasters(english and american) will be...broadcasting the match(chelsea v villa).guess i'll have to resort to watching romanian broadcasts.or dutch.

in the mean time,i should go iron my exclusively tailor-made shirt which I'm going to be wearing to church tomorrow.A tad bit overdressing,i must admit,but it's a chance to try on that shirt.so why not?xD


 next week,there's english summative(die),med chem test(also die),major chem quiz(i hope i won't die,really need that A for chem,especially after that complete fiasco of a chem test.).

Digressing abit,did you guys know that NUS High was set up as a result of our dear education minister Teo Chee Hean's visit to Thomas Jefferson High in the states?He was so...taken by the idea of a math and science 'excellence center' that he thought, why not(singapore too)?yeap.so i guess we have him to thank(i guess) for.

and a bit of advice from jm's green power plant,desalination plant and oil rig builder friend,if you ever get the chance to 'escape' from singapore,grasp that chance.for reasons which if i stated here i could very well be persecuted by the government.

right.i really should go iron that shirt now.cheerios!

singtel's a piece of shit.

stupid &%^@#$^@&%&#% singtel.wasting my time.sending me a bill that's as good as shit.(still crappy.)

screwing with my mind.

all this chinese papers are just so &%@^%#@^$^%#@ ARGHHHH

don't get me wrong,I don't hate the language,but the homework is just so &^&$#%$@#&^%@%#.

right.maybe if i go shower,I'll be more level headed.

bye.

adroit

somehow i don't know what is it about british comedy that makes me laugh.sometimes it's just the 'oh,this is the part where I'm supposed to laugh!' moment,and sometimes it's just...funny?

right.got to get some work done.going for that concert tonight,so have to get my work(or at least a part of it) done.

see ya.

ruck of things?

it's 25 minutes after midnight,I'm up trying to torrent how i met your mother,my body's aching all over,I'm tired and there's a million more things running through my mind.

yeap.

nites,y'all.

sense of achievement.

cross country today.and OH YEA I GOT THE COLLAR PIN PEOPLE.

hehes^^.

the last part on the highway was quite retarded stupid.it seemed to go on and on and on and on for all of eternity.

and we saw some MONKEYS.

not during the run though.

they were raiding the camp for food.some juniors fed them stuff=.="

Thank God for giving me the will,determination and strength to keep on going.i wanted to give up at the last leg.but i persevered,trusting that He will give me the strength i needed.and as always,He provided.

makes you feel ashamed of yourself sometimes,(well,at least that's how i feel)He gives SOOOOOO much and yet we give so little.That just goes to show how much He loves and care for us.

yeap.

after the race,we had to go back to the tentage.and it was super hot!well it was since early in the morning><.

then after that we went to eat junction 8 lunch.and it still avoids me how some people would not want to shower after running through a freaking forest.tsk.

i went back to hostel with junwei,then showered(oh gosh finally),did laundry,then slept.for 2 hours.woke up,collected laundry,yada yada yada,went down to eat dinner,yi xuan joined me halfway through...

yeap.

waiting for my parents now.they're coming later at 9.15.they're now at hwa chong to bring my youngest sister for gymnastics(lolol).

alright.time to go slack.see ya~

humour.

don't know why,but i'm laughing to british comedy xD

this blog is best viewed with firefox,lol.

yeap.coz sometimes chrome screws up the page abit.abit.

i'm slacking off now.i should really get some work done.(this is like super ultra mega procrastination lolol)

and should get to packing my bag for tmr's trip to JB.

we're staying at a hotel there for like one night.because my father wants to spend more quality time xD

i think it's because he think we don't spend enough time together-(got interrupted by my mum for a bit,had to switch windows for a bit so she wouldn't see this.i'd feel weird if my mum/dad reads this blog lolol).as i was saying,he probably thinks that we don't spend enough time with each other(with him too) because nobody wished him happy birthday last friday.on his birthday.or at least,i know i didn't.and I'm not at all proud of that fact.

my dad's been working in malaysia ever since i was in p4 i think.so he has to drive up to KL every week and come back on the weekends.hardcore.

that's some real commitment.he's been doing this for 7 years just to put food on our table,to provide for our basic needs and many many more

Thank Lord for giving me such a wonderful father.I don't know whether I can ever say this to him,maybe it's some guy thing><

we rarely have heart to hearts.probably 'cause we work on the basis that we just know?lolol.i'm not sure.

the human mind is such an incredibly complex,unfathomable thing but yet such a beauty to behold,arguably God's greatest(well,almost i think,i dare not say greatest for he probably has far greater creations) ever creation.

So I shall pledge myself to be a even better son for the rest of my life,to my earthly and heavenly Father both.I can try,but I cannot possibly be a better son to him than how he has been a father to(and for) me,because,well,that's just love for you.The things they do for you is solely out of love and love alone.So please do treasure your parents(I'm not saying that you don't) and love them just as much as they love you.Sometimes it may not seem so,but the love they have for you is unconditional.They don't ask anything more from us than to be filial sons and daughters.

Love.just let it fill your lives.forever and ever.

peace.

P.S. no matter what,just keep it up.

the missing floor of clementi mall.

i'm serious.there's like no level 2.you take the escalator from first floor to...BAM.third floor.

maybe it's like the platform 9 and 3/4 of King's Cross. :O

well...there's always that slight possibility.

so.my day's been quite okay,i guess.i was half doing my work and half slacking in the morning.

thought i have finally gotten some jay chou songs i could listen to on my phone,but once it's on my phone,it's nowhere to be found.^#$%#@!#^$!@%$#^!@$&

(sam yong give me someeeee!>< i think you should have :P)
(and not really whether sure whether you reading my blog,but remember to get me a little souvenir hor!xD*demanding friend much?*)

that reminds me.

quite nice.but sad.

yeap.then after that,rushed out of the house to go meet jm.to hit the gym.

and we really hit it well,man.(sounds so weird ._.)

i progressed from the 17.5 to 20 kg barbell(ego) yeaaaaa:DDD

and i really pushed myself today.muscles feels more fatigued.yeap.we did stuff for and hour and a half,then went to eat lunch at subway.

wanted to buy the taiwan chicken.but then resisted the urge/temptation to.but still feeling hungry now.

we got the pull up bar,finally!for like 36 bucks.

so pin and dion,you guys have to pay 9 bucks.EACH.

lolol.

spent quite some time searching for a birthday present for my sister(the oldest amongst the three younger ones).but still failed.i don't know what to get her!like even the most practical gifts that i can think of was chui.

and i'm like going to m'sia(jb) tmr.that means that i won't be using my money to get her a gift.so yeap,i'm screwed.

help me!(plea to sam/si min/any female readers)

a practical yet nice gift for a 14 years old teenage girl who too digs k-pop!

righty-o.

I know i should get some work done now,but i'm too tired.mentally and physically.

groan.right.time to go do some chizz.


see ya~

bring your guitar!!!

it possible,bring your guitar to hostel!!!pinnnnnnny~

the market.

just went to the market to get some breakfast + get some groceries(yong tau foo) done for my mum and 2 younger sisters.

my mum just chided me for buying noodles for breakfast,as we're having noodles for lunch too...=.="

right.off to go eat my noodles.see ya~

Oh gosh ellen degeneres xDDD

watching her autocorrect segment of the show is like indescribable.

here.you'll see.



there's more of that where it came from.

disclaimer: inappropriate *cough* references.

have fun:)

haircuts

My first ever disastrous haircut.

super short.if i posted a picture of it here,you guys would die laughing lolol.

hehs i probably got more than what i wished for.i always like to keep my hair short because if it gets slightly too long,it'll be hideous.(vanity much?xD)

i kept on complaining,"ah,my hair too long,need to go get a haircut."

and now i'm sitting here with one particularly disastrous haircut.not that it's the barber's fault though.it's the one that i frequent here in yew tee.

and i dozed off a few times during the haircut =.=

was super drained from the cip this morning.helping nurture young talents in football.

and improving the plight of singapore football.

HUZZAH.

and i took a 3hrs nap just now i think =.=

oh gosh i tire out so easily these days.well,probably because i only slept 6hrs only on both nights xD

oh well.

and my productivity has hit an all new low.i was even more productive in hostel,despite all the distractions.i only managed to do half my chem assignment just now,and finish up to half of my 1st chem mind map.the fact that my friday and saturday is going to be eaten up spending time in jb makes it even worst.i have some more things to do besides these 2!><

groan.

and i don't want to stay cooped up at home!it's super depressing,just slacking off at home.it's as if i have no life(i probably do(not have a life)) T.T

so working would probably mean staying cooped up at home.so I shouldn't do work?if only i had that option...T.T

i'm probably gonna get stuck on the com for quite some time later,unless i decide to haul myself off it and get some more work done.

the holidays sucks.probably should have applied for sep.*groan*

they just use the opportunity to spam us with homework.normal school days,they rarely do that(but I'm a 1 hons student with no bio,so that's quite a biased opinion).

right.so i should go slack?xD

see ya~

fooooooooooooood

watching food shows at this time is insane.

my tummy's like grumbling every 3 seconds(ok la,maybe not that exaggeratedxD)

but you get my point.

so to pacify my hard-to-please tummy,i cooked my Heinz's Very Vegetable soup.

turned out ok.it's capsicum,tomato and herbs flavour.

here.

still watching,and now the show's talking about knives lol.kitchen knives, i mean.

and apparently there are three kinds of cutting methods.slice,chop and pare.

slice,long pulling movement,chop,up and down(think choo choo train) ,pare...trimming and psuedo peeling(like apple skin,cucumber skin(not peeling,paring))

i should go,before i bore you guys with even more facts xD

see ya!

Am I?

Am I good enough?

Low self confidence much?Low self-esteem?

maybe.

it's raining inside.is it?

slacking off on the couch.watching afc.and thinking 'bout stuff.

stumbled across this song on youtube though,it's quite nice.

groan.can't embed it here.it's just so you know by Jesse McCartney.

really really pensive now. right.gotta go,else i start pouring out my heart here.

see ya~

renaissance.

random.

this morning when i jetted off for training(joking only la,i no jet plane ): ),took the train to school.for the first time in like 4 months.it was totally rad(no it wasn't)

when i reached clementi,saw kr there.but he was taking bus.so i decided to walk to school.not that i hate him or anything,just that it feels awkward...

while walking to school,met MR LEE!!!haha so awesome,chatting with him all the way while walking to school.apparently his house(i don't know what to call those olden day kampong kinda....houses?o.o") had this garden in it,because his parents are in the agricultural industry(actually at that time i'm not even sure you have this word,agricultural,back in the days as well.but i'm assuming it's that xD)

and that his honours in bio in nus was botany as well.real committed dude!runs in his blood i guess.so he's pretty much been surrounded by plants his whole life.you can see that passion in him,it's like burning.really.not joking.

best bio teacher ever!(other than malcolm soh).

then,came TRAINING(cue doomsday music).coach finally did fitness training,and i must say,i suck at it.and the fact that we were doing it on the fabulous disgustingly muddy field.WHY NO ASTROTURF DDDD:

it was like running in mud soup ><

then he made us run 800m in like 3 m lol.and it's not even 800m because it's on the school field.dang.

the rest of training was quite monotonous (it is for you guys).

except there was this part where i blocked a SIONG GIM shot with my instep.sure,the way i went in looks impressive,but stupid move.should have used my studs(not on him,on the ball).now my right leg feels screwed.

got my boots cleaned(had to directly wash it(apparently i'm not supposed to,because can't get leather wet(which i totally knew(lolol))),because it's covered with mud=.=)

went back to hostel,showered up,did some laundry,and then decided that i was too tired to go out,and went back home.

on the train ride back home,i actually dozed off standing.had to wake up a few times to make sure that i didn't look stupid sleeping:P

reach yew tee,and i decided to be greedy and buy taiwan chicken!oh my gosh pure goodness(mouth melts).

right.but the weird thing is,while walking back home,i suddenly had the urge to cry.i don't know why,must be the mood of the song(it was qing tian) that suddenly made me think of something :O

throughout my 5 years of teenagehood,i have only cried(or wept) like 4-5 times (but i think that's alot for a guy lolol),and it's because of near extreme sadness.

so i reached home,had lunch,cleaned the fan(not fan kai ming,the real fan,what would he be doing at my house LOL) then went to sleep.

woke up at 4.46,went to get some yogurt + granola,cut and wash vegetables(for dinner) and here i am blogging.

i think i'm going to do work later.chem stuff though,i'm not really in the mood for anything else.

see ya~

oh my gosh

qing hua ci's like stuck in my head now.i think i'm getting addicted to it.

i need all his music!!!OH laksfh;dkjgfjakhsdklad.

青花瓷

a beautiful song.really.with a deep meaning to it.

but my chinese's half decent only,so can't really grasp that meaning.

jay chou's a really fabulous artiste.i can finally see that impeccable talent of his.it really is something to behold.

I shall strive to listen to more of his songs from now on!:)

Anyways,it didn't rain just now at jurong.so i could play soccer.

but i didn't.chose to go out for dinner with my family instead.

soccer's always there.but the people that's around you isn't going to be.you can't control these kind of things.so cherish your loved ones.don't regret only when they're gone.cherish them.you never know what's going to happen in life.trying to isn't going to help the slightest bit.

feeling very pensive right now.there are a million things running through my mind right now,but it's all surprisingly quite clear cut.

there are regrets,and they're all regarding my past crushes.like how i used to say things that made a lot of sense back that but now it all carries no meaning.

I don't ever want to make empty promises again.It just makes me feel so damn sick of myself.

I want to make things count.Like how they should always.(that's vague,ain't it)

I really want to.:)

was talking to felecia about some stuff just now online.i unburdened myself with some of my feelings :/

somehow sometimes i have to share my secrets with someone so that i won't feel so cooped up.that's just how i am,i guess.

see ya all,i'm probably going to be slacking off.i'd try to do the bits of the chem mind map that i can though xP

come,fly with me.

sounds like some michael buble song.(wait,it is.)

now,sooo soooo soooooooo bored.and tired.and lazy.it's raining now,which makes me even more sleepier and which means there's no soccer later :(

and the fact that i'm eating out tonight at some jap restaurant with my family(to celebrate my dad's birthday) makes it even worse.because soccer's like my only form of exercise now lol other than gym and pe.

gonna get fat><

well,i suppose i can get my chem mind map half done(because i left my chem notes in school-.-) and get some household chores done(by some i mean ironing=.=).

sleepy too.(i know,i've said that already).probably going to get some sleep later.

sigh~better go get it done then.see ya~~~

advantage,blues.

playing against ten men leh.good chance!just throw on torres and sturridge.

anywhos,today i woke up quite late.like 9.43 late.then slacked off for abit,then went to do some work before realising my epic fail moment.

then i decided to just give up on doing work,and just watched tv.

slacked off even more till 4 something,where i went out earlier than i usually go out when i'm going to youth fellowship.to go and get my dad's gift.

i got him an 8gb thumbdrive.it was the most practical gift i could think off.i went to lot 1 to get it,at first going to popular,then going to courts,then going back to popular again.

i got it for $17.90.quite reasonable bah,it's Sandisk somemore.decent brand.

i left at 4.55,and arrived at church 5.26.

we combined with the english congrete's yf for their last messsage of their yf retreat,it was ok i guess.i though rev quek would be delivering the message,but he wasn't... ._.

then after that stayed for their 'random' activities,it was basically role playing (they were,not me nor my friends).it was a 'prom' scenario,and you have four ppl playing out of character.(their own real life character) their personalities are like draco malfoy-type, bimbo-istic type,paranoid-type and siao za bo type xD

it was quite funny la,but i can't concentrate on recounting it while watching the match.

then after that went to have dinner at subway at lot one(again) and had to kill time for an hour coz my parents were at my grandmother's house and there was no one at home and i had no keys :P

went wandering around,and decided to get myself new earphones:)

i got a nice one,from courts.but it's quite funny,how i bought it.it was like i saw it at first,36 bucks.then i was like ok la,since i don't usually spend much when shopping usually.and 36 bucks should mean that it's decently good quality.

then when i went to pay at the cashier,the person scanned it,and it was like 12 BUCKS!!!i was like feeling bemused at that time.feeling half-ecstatic and half-cheated.

12 bucks!!does that speak volumes about the quality of this earpiece?

but then i was like ah heck,just take the positives.

by the time i was done, it was only 9.10 lol.so i went to wander around more,test out my new earphones,look at cds at popular,then going to ntuc to kill time :P

set back for home at around 9.26,went to yew tee point to kill some more time,and met junfu and his mum there lolol.looked like they were going to ntuc.went back after that and arrived downstairs at 9.48.

while i was walking back home from the mrt,i felt strangely happy,and....argh i dunno how to say.but the song "talking to the moon" could best describe my emotions and what i was thinking about of that time.

and so yada yada yada,i'm blogging here and watching the match.

well,time to go i guess.

see ya!(enjoy the second day of sep,simin and sam!:) )

and so yada yada yada,here i am right now.overall a very ordinary day

the holidays are here!rejoice?no.

right.things to do during this short break.

1)Chem assignment
2)Chem Mind map
3)Study for chem test(must maintain A!)
4)Math assignment 4
5)Math summary?(maybe,it's like due on 28th march.)
6)Study for math gct 4 and math test 2.
7)Start preparing for AP calc.
8)Read God's word more.
9)Start on med chem project.
10)Go for football training.
11)Cip on tues.
12)Get a life.
13)Daydream while doing work?
14)Do chinese compo and holiday hw.
15)Run.(hopefully,if I can find the reason to.)
16)Prepare for the english journal presentation thing.D:
17)Read more.

That's probably just about it.

I know others probably have alot more,so I'm probably already very lucky.

In other words,I'm screwed.xD

...=.="

was doing chem assignment just now,and then it hit me.

I LEFT MY CHEM NOTES IN HOSTEL!!!!-.-

dang.might as well just take tmr or take on mon.(when i go back for training)

right.gotta go buy a gift for my dad later~

still thinking of what to buy.

see ya!take care!

Cocoa Cappuccino

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you asked me why.

yet i feigned ignorance just now like a jackass.i'm gonna clear that up.don't get me wrong,i'm not angry at you.you gave me something to reflect upon.something important,which i need to sort out pronto.

my feelings have been messed up quite a few times recently this year.why?well,i was centered on the wrong things.things that aren't supposed to be my priority.it really isn't.yes,i have to admit that i'm rather 纷心(i don't know whether it's correct lol.).i have realised it before, but i keep shoving it aside,avoiding.feigning ignorance.christians aren't supposed to be like this. i really need to rework myself.

Thanks:).no,really,thanks.there's no bit of sarcasm here.if there is,then i don't deserve to live.a decent man would take anything that comes his way.anything.not that i'm saying that what you said is bad.it's good,actually:) ask me again next time,and i'll tell you. Promise. I hope this doesn't spoil our friendship though. I really hope it doesn't.:)

Have a safe trip to korea ya:)and do enjoy it!God bless!

Coconuts and cheese crackers

first things first,here's a shout out to si min and sam,who missed today's math lesson.according to mr lim,we're gonna do tut,assignment 4 at starbucks while he sips his cappuccino.yeap.so bring those things:).plus your chapt 4 notes:)

received my chi test results today.got 51/80 :(.my zhtk screwed me up again.-8 marks from there leh.

then,later went to the lounge to play bridge + mao.don't ask me what mao is,it's complicated crap xD.you get penalised for making random noises.oh well,i supposed i should have resisted the temptation to do so.xP

i wonder how you make the 'rrrrrr' noise.i can't seem to do it>.<"

played that for like 1.5 hrs lolol.we were all nearly brain dead by then.

then went back hostel to slack,and then math.math was same old same old.like a paradise(that was not sarcasm.)

and Mr.Lim's chinese name is 林德春!

hehehe^^

then later we went to ssef.kept on disturbing sam and simin,lolol what a lousy friend i am.xD

then went to buy macs (so unhealthy) and smuggled it inside science centre to eat it.and to look for jm,pinnnnny and da-ryl.

yeap.then we went to do some more chizz,came out and ate macs again.i just sat there and stole some fries.

went back to sch after that,and watched the family guy version of the original Star wars trilogy.super funny and distracting.B'coz i was doing my med chem assignment at that time.:P

ate dinner,did some more med chem,and i now i'm here blogging and waiting to do rollcall and rush down to avoid the lift rush during fire drill(but maybe you aren't supposed to take the lift during fire drill).and i live on the 12th floor.so going down earlier is smart.imagine walking down twelve floors of stairs.it's not that hard,but it's a bore. x.x

and while i'm down there,can laugh at everyone who are still up there waiting for the lift/walking down the stairs still.

right.it's 8:59.gotta go now.see ya!:)

debut.

just made my debut for the school team today,on for the injured junwei for the last 10 minutes.

AS A CM.for those non soccer junkies,here's what a CM does:).click here.

lolol.i'm the last person you'll ever think of playing in CM.played decently,intercepted some passes,tracked back to help out in def.there was one moment where the opponent striker rounded yk,then i went straight to the goal line.the striker shot,and my heart skipped a beat when the ball flew past me.but thank goodness kr was on the line to block it.*whew*

though i could have set off a dangerous counter attack had i controlled the ball and sprayed passes around in the dying minutes of the match.

and while i was walking past the referee moments later,the referee suddenly blew for full time.mind blown.literally mind blown.more mind blown then i was at sam yong's counterfeit taiwanese chinese accent

haha throughout the match while i was sitting on the bench i was in two minds.it's like part of me is dreading the moment where coach asks me to warm up,and part of me is looking forward to the moment where coach subs me in.lolol.

it was my first ever taste of competitive soccer/football!went quite well.but my stamina sucked-.-must train more!

well.oh ya did i mention that i wore SHUEN'S JERSEY?I REALLY DID!!!XD

IT COULD FIT ME!!!:DDDwell,it was abit tight fit,so more macho xD

INTIMIDATE OPPONENT seh!*ego*:)

yeap.oh.i finally got my phone to charge.had to go ninja jia min's charger.

mine couldn't work for some reason.so had to hotspot,cannot use usb tethering.

i feel very slack today.ok,shall go play more games~and maybe attempt to do med chem assignment xP.

see ya~~

don't let this end.

don't let this end like how it all ended last time.

i don't want it to:)

because this could be it.

med chem quiz was screwed up lol.

and it's like 15% of the final grade.screwed haha.

screwed screwed screwed screwed xDDD

tmr's gonna be so boring T.T

esp eng.OH SPARE ME><

and i just realised i screwed up the slow and fast step for the rxn mechanism for the quiz.lolol.now can only get 13.5 only.(MAX)T.T

anyways.nothing more to say here.here's a jason chen vid to enjoy.:)




like i said,enjoy:),and good day(or night),people!:D

smallocks.

haha today so eventful lol.and now i'm supposed to be studying for med chem quiz.but i'm tired and i don't want to care lolol.

anyways.today had chem quiz and eng summative.

ii'm fully prepared to get a C or D for eng.coz i write until i don't even know a thing i'm talking about.it's like jump from one point to another.

ah heck la.i don't care about english.it's not like i have to write argumentative/discursive essays in the future.=.=

chem quiz was on the other hand,super EASY HARD.(for the benefit of my roommate).

it's like everything is just to give throw free marks away.(again,this is for the benefit of my roommate).

and today,dewey was surprisingly cheery lol.he had this cheeriness in his voice,facial expression....well ya you get it,he's just cheery.

hence chem was quite fun^^

then maths.as usual,teck choow(or chow?) was at his epic best.like suddenly can just change subject from math to swedish ice resorts.and he taught us swedish for 'exit'.it's utgang(wu-tuh-gang).very important to take note of if you want to go sweden someday.

really hope he's gonna be our teacher next sem again*cross fingers*

then,after that,LUNCH.tried to 'impress' some people with my knowledge of scandals/gossiping thingy.it was ghastly.

and I FAILED.

ya,they were unimpressed.namely sam and wei qi.

and then after that we went on to the topic of stalking.and comparing ez-link cards.they were mindblown by my change,man.mindblown.here.

that's me year 1.^^

and

me now.

here's a diff pic.

you can see which one is me right.

this is my church's 青年团契.i'm the youngest there.but the second tallest lolol.

i don't know them quite well,though,coz i came to this church,like this year only.

it's at pandan gardens(jurong,it's like a 5mins drive down aye from school here)

*hint hint*

but i stay at yew tee lol.i take longer to get to church from home xD

alright.anyways,sidetracked bigtime.

we were basically sitting there at the canteen talking till 2 40 smth.then we relocated to the lounge to play bridge.

bridge was FUN kay,so i me and rachel were partners for the first 2 rounds then me and sam was partners for the rest of the rounds.haha and me and sam were like shamelessly screening each other's cards.it's like we open our hands big big then just show.but we still lose lolol xD.

then after that went for phy lab re-test.got 25/30,but i think surely got -marks one la.it's retest after all.

right.shall attempt to mug med chem and slack off at the same time now.but do something to my abs firstxD

okies,off i go...see ya!~~~

chemistry.it plays with you sometimes.

i think i'm more or less done with arenes.MORE OR LESS.yes.means that i'm still unsure whether i'm fully prepared.

urgh.and then you have that appendix chizz.apparently dewey says that since we are  chem hons students,we have to go read it.i've read it last week,and bits and pieces of it are coming back to me.haiz.guess i'll mug some more of it tmr.

and i still have med chem to mug lolol.die alr.x.x

ortho,para directing,primary secondary amines blah blah blah.

right.better go sleep.watched the first half of the match just now,and i'm not optimistic of our chances of winning.but still,Chelsea all the way!

see ya.overall,this has been a 'half-ly'(lolol eng fail xD) productive night.

Productivity smudgetivity

Supposed to be studying chem(still) right now.well,i was just now.but i got abit sidetracked reading blogs :P

went for cbs(church bible study)  just now.i just get so perked up when Rev Quek preaches.he's very...dramatic(LOL).plus,he somehow makes God's Word 'come alive'.

but these few sessions of cbs(it's only on the first sat of every month) are supposedly more parenting-ish,so it's slightly less relevant to me.

but i supposed one can always start preparing early!xD

it's from the book of proverbs,fyi.

and just found out(well actually like a few weeks ago) that the KJV is used for the english congrete for my church.well actually it's 'church-wide'.it's somewhat better than the NIV.coz the NIV is like...abit...argh i dunno how to explain.but God's Word is still God's Word.

ya so then we were basically talking bout discipline in the context of parenting today.

and i must say,all that bullcrap about corporal punishment and society...is just bullcrap.you need corporal punishment to discipline a wayward child,and that is what the bible says.though not exactly in this kind of phrasing.

and God's Word always and forever will be true.

and thereafter the preaching by Rev Quek, we had sharing.

it was only then when i reflected that i was grateful for my parent's disciplining of me,for without that,i could have strayed off the path of righteousness and down the spiraling pathway to hell forever.(sounds bit exaggerated,i know)

lollol my mum just called me(on the phone) even though she was just in the room opposite mine.to ask me how to spell 'hymns'.

the first half of the day was spent lazy-ing around,i tried studying chem,but whatever i read didn't seem to get into my head.i dozed off studying too LOL.

i seem to tire more easily ever since i started staying in hostel.must be because of those late*oops* nights.if i get too little sleep,i'll die in lessons.if i get too much sleep(e.g. sleeping early) i'll still die =.="

lol my body's screwed.

3 friendlies next week.the chance to rise to the occasion.the chance which i don't know how to grab.yet.

Mind over matter,haha.mind over matter.

alright.gotta go now.study for half hour more before deciding whether i want to be suicidal and watch that 11pm match x.x

see ya,nites!~

the quiz(DA DA DA DUMMM)

i said i would finish the quiz,and i will.

here~

Music, movies and books

181-How often do you listen to music?

erm,sort of everyday.
182-What kind of music you like?

i like anything except for heavy metal.conditionally.
183-Do you like to dance?

no.i hate dancing,lol.
185-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

nope.
186-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past:

erm,i dun have one,because my music library is quite limited._.
187-A song that’s been stuck in your head:

don't judge me,but it was **** you by Avril Lavigne.my roommate was playing it ytd,so it got stuck in my head somehow.so blame him xD
188-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play:

...right.

1) Tied together with a smile by Taylor Swift.

2)Blackbird by Kurt Hummels(I know,glee stuff,so ya.)

3)The Christmas Song by Justin Bieber

4)Sucks(the song sucks)

5)Lucky by Jason Mraz.

6)When it rains.

7)My kind of Perfect by David Archuleta

and yada yada yada.
189-A book you want to read/have recently read:

i want to read Inheritance, but i keep putting it off.it's sitting on my hostel desk right now.
190-Describe your dream library:

it has a kitchen with all the cooking instruments in it,and a fridge with any sort of food i want.
191-Last movie you just watched:

In the cinema?Journey 2 the mysterious island.

192-Do you like watching what type of movies?

Action(AVENGERS!!!),adventure,comedies,romantic comedies.

Situations and crazy things

193-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done?

urgh.i don't ever want a tattoo.but,i'd want torres's name.
194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for?

blowing up the moon.
195-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be?

ben skywalker.
196-You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to?

many people.my family,and certain friends.
197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?

teach myself soccer at the tender age of 2.
198-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why?

i wanna be Potassium.sounds so cool and it's reactive :D
199-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

yr 1.
200-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy?

the force.Laugh evil-ly.
201-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like?

it'd be super exhilarating,exciting with lotsa rides and some of my friends get free entry:)
202-What is the first curse word that comes to mind?

shit.
203-What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be…

i have never been to a party in like,a long long time.
204-Halloween costume idea?

we don't have halloween here in s'pore.but i'd go as richard castle.
205-How you’d spend ten thousand bucks?

oh ho.many,many ways.firstly,i'd want to get myself a private football pitch (with a top grade surface)and some nice preds.
206-Press ctrl+v and post:

Whaaaaat?
207-Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month? Explain why.

of course with someone i love la!are you that dumb?=.="

208-5 things within touching distance:

my cup,tissue,comp,chem notes and lotion.
209-A drunken story:

and drunk guy jumps into the pool and starts shouting MARCO POLO and annoys the heck right out of his neighbours.
210-What are you supposed to be doing right now?

studying for chem quiz.
211-Currently wanting to see anyone?

maybe.
212-Why you follow me?

=.=""""
213-If you met me what would you do?

nothing.
214-Leave me a ridiculous question:

are you gay?
215-Leave me a cute message:

you're gay,aren't you.

Brit-ish comedy

i wonder if listening to british comedy will help me improve my english.if you guys want to slack off and listen to some brit-ish comedy too,just go youtube "Cabin Pressure".

though it's supposedly a british comedy,i still can't get like 80% of the humor of it.

do i not have a sense of humor?._.

here's the first episode.just so you guys are interested.




righty-o.

this entire week was alot more busier.well,at least it felt like it.though i didn't have training on mon,wed and fri.

feel so slackish,urgh ><

oh ya.i watched the match today.and it was,erm...dreadful.
we lost 5-1.

as Joel said,we were completely outmatched,outran,outclassed.

and the way they play was so scary ._.

i'm already shuddering at the thought of playing next week.there's like 3 more friendlies next week,so chances are i could play.

gosh.i feel so screwed.it's like i was screwing up my passes left right already during the pre match warm up.it's like my confidence is like so fragile now that my touches are not what they are in normal practice,aRGH.

and the fact that i'm probably not doing anything to help that makes it even worst.

why do i have such a low self-confidence?D:

if i play,i might screw up big time><

i know,if we never make mistakes,we'll never learn.problem is,the mistakes i make i don't learn from them,even though i want to all the time.

i really hate this mental fragility of mine.can i even call myself a man now?sigh.

i feel like i'm  subconsciously hiding my true potential.maybe it really is mind over matter.my composure's a wreck every time in match situations.and i somehow keep thinking i'll screw up,and i do eventually.

wow.i must be pathetic,eh?

if i keep beating up myself over these mistakes,it won't help even more.

tell me,it is okay to make mistakes,right?._.

and it's like i'm afraid of disappointing the coach,my seniors and even my friends, that i often end up screwing up.T.T

looks like this is a emo post again.><

and the fact that the weekend looks so bleak makes it even worst.why do my weekends seem this way every time?:O

is it because of hostel?it could very well be.

friends?


i have chem and med chem quiz next week,i don't even know why i took med chem hehs.i was interested in the module,i think.well,i still am.it's abit urgh-ish sometimes but still very interesting.

i definitely want to pursue a career in chemistry in the future.whether it's material science,pharmaceutical industry,chemical engineering,i'm not sure.maybe God will lead the way.wait.what am i saying.Of course He will lead the way.right,sam?:)

my spiritual life is in disarray.i can't push myself to get some 'quiet time' with God nowadays,mostly because i keep getting distracted and keep pushing it to the back of my mind.otherwise known as procrastinating.T.T

it should be my number 1 priority.it should.but why isn't it? God should be.

i need to rework my lifestyle,big time.

right.gotta go.eat stuff xD

see ya~